i realised yesterday that i have always KNOWN what i am going to do about something. in the back of head, i have always known what i would do in any situation i have been in. even if i have hummed and hawed over it, i think the desicion was already made, in my head.

i do not have a desicion to make.

if you are someone i don't know, you can read what is actually going on in the diary entry under 'reads'

it's locked. if you know me, don't bother asking, because i will NEVER let you read it. even you, ben gibson and rachael spree.

my ex-boyfriend ben tends to read my diary a lot. this is okay, but makes it hard to say what i really think.

*update*

actually i changed my mind. you can't read about me at all. link has been taken away. :P