lonely, like i need a big warm hug from my boyfriend, like i need my friends around me to make me feel better.

but no-one wants to go out, everyone is tired, and my boyfriend is a hundred miles away in a pub getting drunk with a bunch of girls.

i hate being at home, so much. my parents tell me in sick in the head just because i won't tell them why i am upset.

i know, if i go to bed, i'll feel lonely again. i haven't slept on my own (apart from last night which was horrible) since the christmas holidays. although it is nice to have the room all to myself, i would prefer to be squished up against the wall by dave.

i can't text him again, i have text him six times today. how sad am i??

actually, nothing good has happened to me at all today. i have updated my diary about 5 times, just about how sad and lonely i am. i just can't wait to get back to university, to be honest.

katie