i have never been a big fan of war, i have an acute fear of nuclear attack. it has plagues me for many years. it started when i watched this vile film called 'threads' its about a nuclear bomb hitting sheffield. for months after i had seen it i found it difficult to leave the house, i was so depressed.

i know it's a bit of a random phobia, and i know it seems silly to people i tell about it (usually only people i am very close to, i don't want people thinking i am cRaZy) mostly people say "well you won't know anything about it if it happens" which is a dumb comment. im not scared of dying (although it wouldn't be my activity of choice) i am scared of the aftermath, the radiation, sitting by a river with my melted eyeballs running down my face, screaming for help, with everyone dead around me. this is what i fear, and there is no words which can help me.

it has got better over recent years, but the thought of war brings it back, which is horrible.

i have other reasons for not wanting there to be a war, of course. i don't think that tony blair has listened to the people and what we want. i know we don't know the whole story, but this is a democracy, and we have a say. (or are meant to)

i don't think the iraqi people should die, there will be civilian deaths, there always is. we all now that 'casulty of war' is a euphemism for 'innocent person who got in the way of a superpowers goal'

i do not think that our troops should have to die for reasons they do not fully know. i do not think that we have the right to dictate to other countries leaders what they can and can't do with their country. you don't see iraqi inspectors looking at our weapons do you?

these are my views, if you don't like them, or agree with them, then i don't care. you've read the disclaimer (haven't you? you should always read disclaimers)