Anyway, I'm having a rough time right now. I felt really sad yesterday because I had *another* row with my dad. I have realised now for a long time that my dad doesn not love me, he tolerates me. I am an irritation from a wife he never loved. This is not upsetting to me anymore, nor is this the cause of our rows.

also, yesterday i had a row with everyone :(. I'm not even sure how it happened. It was about 1am, and I had just finished working on an essay, so got up and went to the toilet, with a towel wrapped round me to protect my nakedness (!) I saw everyone was in the front room, just got in from a big night out, and popped my head around the door just to say hi. Immediately, I heard;

"oh look it's Katie, flaunting herself again"

"if we wanted to look at..."

"Wandering around with no clothes on"

I was not flaunting myself, I was going to the toilet. I don't see why I have to put all my clothes on just to walk the three steps to the toilet. It's stoopid. This morning Lisa asked if I was alright, and I said:

"No actually I'm not, you were f***ing horrible to me last night"

So she said;

"Well why arn't you having a go at Liv, or Phil, or Patch, they were there too."

"Because your the first person I have seen, actually"

"Well maybe I don't want to see you in just a towel"

So I said, stoopidly,

"Well maybe I don't want to see you at all"

Which wasn't very helpful Now I can't leave my room, because they are all there, and they keep laughing at me whenever I go in the room. :( I hate it here sometimes.