I've had a weird morning so far. I woke up to find Dave gone, which was unusual, and then Lisa knocked on my door wanting a topshop bag, but I didnt have one so now she has my cool oasis bag. :(

Last night we watched the film 8mm. It's very disturbing, If you havent seen it, it's about a detective who is hired to work out whether a film that an old lady found was real or not. The film is of two men raping and killing a girl. One of the men is wearing a gimp mask. The dectective (Nicholas Cage) travels through the porn industry, finding more and more disturbing films. I wont tell you what happens at the end, but ole Nicky boy goes mad and kills some people...Anyways, the point that I was wondering was, do those sort of films exisit? In the film, men were jacking off to them. It made me fel really ill, and I don't understand how the makers of 8mm justified what they did at all, and how did they know about that sort of thing?

It made me feel weird, and I had some nasty dreams. How can people watch that sort of thing. I was one of the most disturbing films I have ever seen.