Right now I wish that I was

a) better at HTML, because lets face it...purple and white ain't gonna win me no prizes!

b) not such an incompetant at living in a share house. Then I wouldn't argue with Rhys

c) not so completly sure sure that everything in the world is my fault

d) not such a slag when it comes to men. I managed to hang on to a good one for a year and a half. Now I have let him go because I'm to much of an attention seeker.

Those are the things I would like to change about myself.

My apperance...well...I spent eight years of school being told I was ugly...but most of those people I have seen since and say that I'm much prettier now.

That reminds me. When I was in Hemel last weekend we went bowling at the bowlplex. Guess who I saw? Kenny Walker!

Apparently he's mates with one of my friends' friends' (you get the picture) anyway so when no-one is paying us any attention he turns to me and says;

"Sorry"

"What for?"

"For everything...you know"

"Trust me Kenny...I'm over it"

and that was what happened. You may think I was being a little bit harsh...but I could have done with that apology about four years ago when I cared what he thought about.

Thats the biggest thing that has changed about me. I am more able to push peoples negative comments to one side, and try and listen to the good things that people say about me.

Until next time

Kxx

P.S It is worth noting that Kenny looked at my breasts about ten times during that short dialogue.